Like the Spring… Attraction Begins Anew

Entry 03/31/2025 05:58:31 PM: Mentat 2551

It is said that each time someone falls in love, it always different.   Each person you encounter and get to know has a different effect on your approach to love and loving that person.  For me it always starts the same way: strong attraction.   However after that initial reaction, I can say it’s always different.

So the question is — how do I describe that difference this time?

Intense.  Once the hesitancy disappeared, the amount of emotional energy the man generates can be felt hundreds of miles away.

There’s definitely a strong feeling of magnetism here.  More so than I have experienced.  The want and desire to meet, match and perhaps even exceed the sort of intensity I often felt when attracted to someone else.   It doesn’t have words, currently it is pure emotion.  I want to find the words to make it solidify and crystallize, yet at the same time it’s like both of us are trying to find exactly what words best describe the feeling to the other.  Like it’s waiting for the right moment, or the right amount of trust before it makes itself known.

Do I feel safe?  Yes, currently.  Better than I felt 6 months ago when I ran into him again after the issues that he had to work through and ended up being slammed with a new set of issues he was still trying to prepare himself to face.

Do I feel the same thing from him as I feel for him?  Yes I do.   It’s as clear as a morning when the fog has been  lifted.

Do I wanted to explore more?  Oh  god yes.  I can imagine that there’s a lot more going on in the unspoken than the spoken.  It’s just…   Waiting for it to all come pouring come out.  It’s as though those words are at the door, holding the knob and waiting to turn it, before stepping out and being known.

…And I’m willing to wait.

I actually look forward to how this year and a day is going to go.  It’s a partial feeling of anxiousness, excitement, expectation and exploration as we get to learn more about each other and how we can work together.

There will be more on this as the days unfold from Spring to Summer.

All I will say is this…  It can all be summed up with one word:

Nick.

Until the next time.